Leathol Pistol

Ok so i went to go see tony and tinas wedding, seriously i expected worse, unfortuantely i went with amy ugh, i swear she likes, me i just cant stand her being all touch feely with me, anyways, i saw the old man that was in the fool for love play that amy is in, strange, and i saw this other guy i swear i know from somewhere else. Then i had to rush home and take my online final for my environmental studies class. Today at work was fun i suppose, one of the new guys is quitting, went to lunch at carls jr, had to ride there in wilkies car, wasnt that bad. talked to mom and dad today, they are coming up in august some time, havent seen my mom since xmas so it will be nice to see her again, cody (my brother) is still in austin, he is moving out of the house he is sharing with travis, travis is an ass, and his girlfriend finally broke up with him...Ha ha ha. well im starting to think moving back to vegas was a mistake but thats a different story, things didnt work out with angie, but i really dont think i expected them to, that girl is just to screwed up and i tried to do the nice thing and save her, so now i saw fuck her. for one thing its fucking hot in this town and most of the people are ignorant superficial attention whores. Im trying to get a local paper roots of alliance off the ground and get the las vegas indymedia site up, but i am getting little if no help, jason, eillen, and the usual affinity group are there ofcourse but i need more diverse input. Oh yeah jain and racheal want me to go visit them in chicago, or at least meet them in austin cause beth died. Apparently the hospital refused to treat her cause she was a trannie, so that sucks. Jain called me and was all upset. I talked to justin, he finally quit frys so im proud of him. Im working at this new company doing web site stuff, im not gong to elaborate at this time. Well i started writing my book finally, i hope people will want to read it. well my brother called, hes moving back down to harlingen, tx to help our parents with their business. Ok i am very bored, i need someone to entertain me. When i talked to jason the last time, he took me aside and told me that he was a little upset with me for just leaving town last year and not telling anyone where i went, ok so i sorta disappeared but i had my reasons, at least he is happy to see me back. Oh i finally met noel again at first friday, she was with eileen, dana, claudia, jason, and christian. she is evil cause she and eileen ex's did stuff while eileen and ryan were still together. she kinda cute in that whole eastern european kinda way, and she asked me give her a ride to san francisco in 2 weeks so we shall see how that turns out.

Ok first of all first friday in vegas cannot even be compared to first thursday in austin, austin kicks vegas ass in that area, now with that said. I went to first friday this last week with jason, eileen, claudia, dana, noel and christian, this was interesting, the art hadnt changed much from last month, we went and saw this band, they were ok, we write obscene things in chalk and the street, and we watched claudia movie she made for the arts park film festival. ok and i saw lock and saab, saab dressed up as mr cuba trying to pimp out his new comic book and tell everyone about his new radio show on 1230am, and lock being wierd cause he hadnt seen me in a year, he made me a hitler out of pipe cleaners, that kind is a bit strange. so after all that we went to double down, eileen and christian couldnt get in cause they are young people, so we stood outside and yelled profanities at people. Then we started burning dollar bills in some fatal attempt at a protest, the response we got was interesting people were actually cheering, then someone grabbed an old flag and we started to burn in when the member of this lame sellout corporate band called other damn disappointment took it away and put it in their van. We ended up having some interesting conversations with some very ignorant people about politics, then the cops came and we all ran away. Saturday i went to a co workers house for a bbq and played bored games, sunday i went to a nyc RNC organizing meeting and slept most of the day, and monday i worked a little and went to a print collective meeting for indymedia. Thats pretty much my weekend, very exciting huh. yeah i know. bit me.

Your just a young boy baby
with your noble face, pretty eyes, crazy
can't stop thinking about
turn around n' fight it
stand up, face it baby
it's always been about you, darling
just want to run away hide away
cause of you baby
there seems to be a problem here
can't put my finger on it.
I see it every day baby
suffer a little bit each time
turn away walk away
it's just not that easy baby
I'm just a young girl baby
with my warm face, big eyes, silly
can't stop thinking about
turn around n' fight it
stand up, face it baby
it's always been about me, honey
just want to run away hide away
cause of me baby
there seems to be a pattern here
can't seem to put my mind on it
you see it every day baby
suffer a little bit each time
turn away walk away
it's just not that easy
it's just not that easy baby

left behind
in my box
look into me
empty
last time
I was broken
laying with in reach
hardly worth holding
spoken down
the words it wraps this
embrace this
roll over
sunken with in
emotions escapes me
kick- punch
dead
tear-blank stare


Do you hear me
I'm calling out your name
Feel my preasent it's just the same
So your only in it for the fame
Do you hear in what I"m trying to say
I'm here see me
I could feel you
Do you feel me inside you
So I see we're going a little insane
A little mad you say
No just a lot
Feel my anger
Laugh cause it's not there
Feel the heart break
It's not fair
Do you feel me call out your name
Can you hear that I'm there
So you really feel I'm sane
I don't know
May be just a little
Crazed

With days like this
Oh the cold days of summer
The sighs that wont stop
Dark nights blankets
That wont make this feeling go away
Days in pieces
News of nothing
Lazy lounging wrestling with in
How long will I wait
Biting my nails
Nervous what may bring
Days like this

By your self you know who I am
That is why you are my love
By your self you know your arms protect me
That is why you think you can own
You want me to go with you
My steps weren’t meant to walk your path
I want to work all day
I don’t want to lie around all day
With all the shit you tell me
I stay composed
By your self you know what you do
There is no more yells
Putting up
Has giving me enough strength to leave
My voice is not loud enough
The reason I scream
I am yelling of joy
No cries you bring can
Bring the joy of freedom
From me
Your mouth just don’t stop
With you know what
You say
And I leave
You see my feet there
Walking
Leaving…Skipping
Pride

Once upon a night it did matter
seldom heard it did shattered
the endless brake of being battered.
Physical or emotional it didn't matter.
Upon this face it did brake.
The blood brew cold when he did wake.
The forever faith that it made ever harder to escape.
When in blood it did meet.
Wishing well it be his.
Last of the night to bring on the fight.
Many wonder of this curse will it leave me in a hearse